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Originally posted here

Emerging

Many things make up who we are - what do you share and what do you keep precious from the world? When do you ignore the 'sensible' and leap into what you love?



How often have I tried to hide?

I know it would be safer to keep my head down, to keep my lunacy separate from the rational academia in which I’m slowly-slowly carving a place for myself, and yet I also know that to hide is to deny myself.

So I shut my eyes and I leap.

I see a scary thing ahead, and I take a deep breath and tell my Sensible Self to close her eyes... and then the moon-kissed heart of me steps off the cliff and trusts the wind to carry her.

It’s never dropped me yet.

I know as well as you do the risks of being seen as crazy – it’s a not-so-secret fear of mine, you know? – if they see me and dismiss me I’ll be left out in the cold. If they think I’m crazy they’ll turn me away... I’ll lose friends and opportunities and it’ll all be for nothing.

So says my Sensible Self. She has good reason to believe these things, and yet I know that even if the worst happens, the Wind will not drop me. At least, he will not drop me far!

I’ve friends who have seen me star-struck and moon-kissed and standing on edges. I’ve friends who’ve stood beside me as I’ve opened doors and boxes which Sensible Me says would be better left closed. In leaping I’ve found people who encourage me to fly, even in the most unexpected places.

Those who shake their heads and sigh do not need to know my heart, but as long as I follow it, the Wind will carry me when the ground falls out beneath my feet. Those that know what flying means will soar with me, even if they ride another breeze.

And only those that understand dreams of flight are worth sharing my secrets with. Only those who already share a spark will understand what I say.

And so I come full circle.

No longer do I hide, but neither do I need to tell everyone I meet my deepest, brightest secrets. That those lights guide me is no reason to announce it to the world.

My dreams, my passions, my obsessions filter into my academic work, and you’d be amazed at how often people ignore the bits they do not understand. It’s not easy to have a touch of the irrational in a world of rationality, but they feed each other and both grow stronger from it.

I am me. Every day I learn to be more me, I am always becoming, and I do not hide...

But I do keep secrets.

haloquin: Photo of Halo in snow, long red coat, looking cheekily at camera while writing in a book... (Default)
Every day the sun rises.

Every day the sun sets.

This year the sun rose and set on the very first Sunrise Camp. A beautiful new venture in magic... a rising of dragons.

A camp which held itself together through sheer determination, and not a little magic.

It took a dragon-hearted commitment from the organising team to pull the dragon out of the hat, but we did it. And I'm proud of this fledgling camp.

This was my first year teaching at a Witchcamp, and I'm so grateful Sunrise was my first time.

Let me tell you a story, a story of campers who chose to be dragons. A story of magic and wonder and strength.

Once upon a time that was, is and shall be, two new campers came away from a Witchcamp in the heart of South West England so inspired that they plotted another camp, one a little different to the gorgeous and luxurious Camp which filled them with such magic. The years passed and the inspiration became a dream, and the two campers grew a little older (though not much) and a little wiser (and a little more foolish, although who can truly say which is which?)

Time danced circles with them, and new relationships grew like flowers in fertile soil. And one day the dream was planted, like a seed, in the same soil that nurtured the friendships, and so an organising team came together. Plans hatched and grew and died, and soon, one plan stood out from the rest as yeilding a harvest. But now Time danced smaller circles, and the dates chosen were so close, with so much to do!

But magic has a wondrous way of bringing everything together, and the organisers chose, like the dragons that they are, to make the Sun Rise. And, of course, it had to.

Sunrise began and the campers came. A new place, a new adventure, new faces, and some that had been around since before the camp-dream was a twinkle of inspiration. Every individual brought something beautiful to the mix, themselves.

They made perfectly imperfect offerings to the Spirit of Dragon, nurturing that force within themselves. They wove a nest of starlight and wonder and love and community and everything that they had to offer. And the egg hatched, and the dragon took flight!

And on wings of magic, the dragon-hearts of the campers also spread their wings, they were challenged, and met the challenges, and received gifts. They learnt to read the world around them for directions, and to see their own desires in their deepest of dragon hearts.

And each one made a choice, to be themselves, in a world which shies from shining-dragon-hearted people.

We all made a choice to step into the world under our own terms, to shine with our own colours, knowing a little more about ourselves, and claiming our power to shape the world a little to our own designs, so that dragons can fly free and wild again!
haloquin: Photo of Halo in snow, long red coat, looking cheekily at camera while writing in a book... (Default)
The soft sun warms my skin... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! Life is Sweet!

Tortellinni, for once perfectly cooked, delights my tongue... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! Life is Sweet!

My final essay is done and in and no longer a weight on my mind... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! Life is Sweet!

There are blue-tits playing and forgaing in the garden, and white butterflies in the blossom filled breeze outside my window... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! Life is Sweet!

And I am listening to amazing music which makes me want to smile and dance... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! Life is Sweet!

Life is sweet, and I am so very grateful!

My heart goes out to everyone here, everyone who is struggling with health and work and stress and everything... I send you a piece of joy to keep you warm...

In Delight,
~Halo xx

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